but no this was really challenging since I’ve never drawn anyone really cry before?? and thank you starry guts ;w;💗
this made me too sad not to fix it.
Shit dude. That fanart is making me think of a sort-of AU where Koller secretly achieves what the Church of the Machinegod couldn’t and he manages to back up his consciousness as a contingency plan, knowing that he very well could get taken out by the Dvali. Only he maybe manages to upload his consciousness to like, every cloud/ peer-to-peer system in existence, so he’s pretty much everywhere all the time because he’s a crafty little freak genius like that and it’ll make it easier for him to get revenge on Otar/Radich.
So maybe one day Koller just….pops up in Adam’s infolink like “Jensennn!!. My favourite techno-wunderkind!! I NEED A FAVOR ‘cause I kiiind of don’t have a body anymore” and of course Adam thinks it’s a very not funny prank at first but then he slowly begins to realize what Koller did and it’s just like…..super bittersweet because Koller is always with him now but…Adam can never touch him again
I just finished Deus Ex and…..man idk. I feel like I missed a bunch of stuff and still have a ton of unanswered questions, but something tells me that’s not gonna change on my second playthrough. I wanna shoot for pacifist again – for real this time (I was doing so well….but then after the city lockdown, I got….so pissed off at all the racist cops that I …kind of…accidentally…unloaded a 10mm in one’s face long after he was dead and just….went Rambo on their asses WHOOPSIE). I’ll do better next time…I’ll…show some restraint. >.>
anyway I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. Instead I’m going to share some soft vacdam fic ideas because I feel dead inside (how I managed to keep Koller alive through the end of the game is beyond me…I have a feeling it’s because of one of the many things I missed in my first playthrough and that he’s gonna get deaded the next time around T_T)
– Koller drags Adam to that rave in the Čistá district and ends up having a bad Neon reaction (Vaclav you idiot, why tf are you doing Neon???); Adam carries him home and stays up all night and takes care of him and basically makes sure he DOESN’T DIE
– Adam saves all the Neuropozyne he finds for Koller, since I get the feeling most of the product Koller gets his hands on is extorted out of him by Radich/the Dvali. Sometimes if Koller neglects himself for too long and is in too much pain/too sick to inject himself, Adam has to do it for him and look after him until he gets better
– When Adam sees Koller’s picture on the “Shit List” wall in the office in Otar’s casino, he freaks out and tries to convince him to come stay at his place for a while where the Dvali won’t find him but of course he refuses because if Radich can’t find him, he’ll be in a lot of trouble so….Adam basically….takes one of the tranqs out of his rifle and….drugs him. And drags him back to his apartment like a goddamn caveman. Koller is….really pissed when he wakes up lol.
– Radich …uses Koller in more ways than one. 😦 He doesn’t talk too much about it but Adam’s pretty good at putting the pieces together, so he’s always there for him whenever Koller needs a safe place. Since sex isn’t important or necessary to Adam, Koller feels especially comforted around him.
– Since Koller gets frequent nightmares and avoids sleep until he’s literally stumbling over, Adam sticks around sometimes to remind him to get some rest and stays with him through the night so he feels safe enough to close his eyes ^_^
They are schmoopy soft babs and I love them and they protect each other. :3
Can You Bring Me The Gun of Rambo? 