Tag: suffering

Do you ever wonder if the Miller/Ocelot rivalry is one-sided? Like Kaz isn’t exactly subtle about how much he hates Ocelot, but I don’t think Ocelot hates or even dislikes Kaz. I feel like he’s very guarded and sometimes defensive around him because of how hostile Kaz always is toward him, but I think Ocelot actually cares a lot about Kaz and can’t really show it because he knows just how much Kaz hates him. Just pay close attention to the beginning, when Ocelot is debriefing Venom right after he rescues him from the hospital. He sounds borderline protective, even marginally plaintive and worried, and keeps stressing urgency in how important it is that we get Kaz the fuck out of there right now.

Also I think about what they got up to while V and BB were asleep, like it’s very clear that they worked together for an undisclosed amount of time before Venom came to MB. I’m pretty sure there was some hate sex and some serious BDSM that went on, but I think Ocelot might have genuinely started enjoying intimacy with Kaz while Kaz only saw him as an object and a distraction.

And then at the end where they’re discussing BB’s plan and how one will have to kill the other, Ocelot sounds pretty dejected and like he genuinely doesn’t want it to come to that, like he’s trying to talk Kaz down and maybe make one last attempt at being something resembling friends, but Kaz is pretty staunchly like fuck off. So you can imagine how difficult it must have been when Ocelot finally goes to kill Master Miller. Or that Ocelot simply can’t do it and just ends up helping Kaz fake his death.

***also fuck he was holding on to Kaz’s sunglasses for hell knows how long and knew the importance of getting them back to him I mean jesus come the fuck on

idk I just like the idea of Ocelot being secretly heartbroken over two one-sided romances and developing that cocky attitude as a defense mechanism for how much he’s pining over men who will never see him the way he wants them to

Meticulously going back through cutscenes of GZ and TPP just to make sure I’ve got timelines down accurately for my fic and like jesus christ

It’s still dark out when their chopper goes down at the end of GZ, it maybe looks like it’s close to sunrise if you look closely – and allowing for an accurate passage of time, BB showed up at the base in Cuba at midnight, carried out the mission, and judging on average helicopter speeds and the amount of distance between the southernmost point of Cuba to Barranquilla, it’d maybe be like a four hour transit time. Give or take, since MB isn’t exactly on the coast, but some distance offshore. So it very well could be hours before sunrise when their chopper plunges into the ocean.

Skip to TPP, Kaz watches as BB falls into a coma as doctors try to resuscitate him. The time specifically states that it’s 1:31 pm. So. Basically. We’re to assume they were stranded in the middle of the ocean for several hours before rescuers arrived on the scene to transport them to the hospital in Colombia.

So imagine Kaz, in a chopper in the middle of the ocean flooding with water, fucking everyone is dead, BB is unresponsive, medic is still conscious but probably can’t speak or do shit because he’s all fucked up and his face is full of metal and bone, he’s probably struggling just to breathe and very likely doing his best to convey directions to Kaz on how to keep BB stable and Kaz is losing his shit because he’s the only one still lucid and able-bodied as he watches the two men he loves struggling to stay alive for HOURS IN A STRANDED CHOPPER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FUCKING OCEAN waiting for help to arrive

From like just before sunrise to, maybe like noon or so. 

Haha jesus christ I love suffering