omg i can’t believe you wrote “Mr. Self Destruct”! you’re so incredibly talented my goodness that fic broke me T_T it was a nice deviation from one-sided ocelhira i’m used to even if that does make sense in context, what with ocelot having a tendency to chase after people who aren’t as into them as he is them. it makes me wonder how many in his unit waited for him to notice them like he wanted bb and kaz to notice him? he deserves to be loved like he loves ppl! anyway, i love your writing~

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omg thank youuuuuuuuuuu!!! YEAH like as I was writing it I kept second guessing it and wondering if it was too ooc because Kaz at the very most tolerates Ocelot’s presence on his best days but the main thing that inspired me to write it was when I started thinking about that one little passive aggressive “I barely recognize you, Colonel” when Volgin’s corpse was brought back to MB and it made me really want to explore how he must have felt about having the body there and how much it must have wrecked him emotionally and we never got to see that? We just saw him make this snide remark at the corpse and then wander off into a doorway and isolate himself. Just the way he spits out Colonel like it’s the nastiest word in the world really resonated with me and made me feel like we get this fleeting insight to a whole world locked away inside Ocelot that we never get to see. And the entire narrative of that fic was centered mainly around that, I just really wanted to make him vulnerable and have someone comfort him and I think in that specific situation Kaz likely would have set aside his personal feelings because he would have been able to empathize with Ocelot’s situation the most. And I really do genuinely believe if they’d met organically outside of their respective missions, they absolutely would have been on better terms, they were just victims to circumstance and it breaks my heart to think about what could have been if they weren’t so wrapped up in BB’s shit.