I know I’ve talked about it before but my favourite thing to think about is Big Boss forcing Kaz over his knee, yanking his pants down, and spanking him mercilessly in front of all of Mother Base. Maybe he got fed up with Kaz mooning everyone all the time, like,

“Kaz, you like showing your ass so much, let’s make it a pretty color, then”

And he keeps squirming and fighting and yelling and it just makes BB hit him harder and everyone’s just kind of stunned but can’t look away ‘cause it’s kinda like a trainwreck and the soldiers’ reactions are anywhere from uncomfortable to vaguely turned on, and medic is standing somewhere in the back with tented pants and a smirk at all the little yelps Kaz makes

And BB tells him the more he fights, the longer it’s gonna last so by the time it’s over, Kaz’s ass is deep red and so raw that he can barely pull his pants back up

Later, medic finds him and teases him about it, but then he lays Kaz face down on his exam table and rubs a soothing cream into the handprints BB left and Kaz is so turned on that he rubs himself out against the table and medic doesn’t say a word, just cleans him up after he comes and lets him sleep

Yay super fucked up headcanon!

You know how Kaz’s hair is like perfect when you go to rescue him, even though he’s been tortured for days? Well, trivial details like this make my mind start to wander, and I was thinking about what might have happened to him while in captivity, and the popular hc is him being gang raped by the Soviets, which is a pretty reasonable idea.

But what if there was just one soldier who’s just seriously fucked up, like he’s into dollification and is an amputation fetishist and he becomes unhealthily obsessed with Kaz. It starts out pretty tame, like this soldier comes in and gently brushes Kaz’s hair everyday, and Kaz is like wtf so he fights back because what the hell?? Soldier doesn’t like this, so he starts drugging Kaz so that he’s still conscious but just kinda catatonic and pliable. And there are no showers available but soldier tries his best to clean Kaz up with a damp cloth, then maneuvers him into different poses and hand feeds him and helps him go to the bathroom (gotta get that humiliation fetish in) and essentially assumes control over every part of Kaz’s body.

And then Kaz wakes up naked and face down with his hand and foot tied to the bed with a pillow under his hips to prop his ass up and he can’t really panic because he’s too drugged up, but he just silently starts crying as soldier lubes him up.

And it’s not even rough, because soldier is obviously v fucked up and has this delusion that Kaz is his very own fuckdoll and they’re in a consensual but loving sub/Dom relationship and so he proceeds to gently rape him, stopping in between to dry Kaz’s tears and reposition him to make him comfortable. And this happens repeatedly everyday, and it’s such a mindfuck because Kaz is accustomed to being handled roughly and it’s really insulting that this soldier fucks him with such care and then meticulously cleans him up and lovingly brushes his hair afterwards.

Sometimes soldier muses about cutting off Kaz’s other limbs and turning him into a true, subservient fuckdoll, and Kaz can’t even plead with him because he’s so drugged up so he just cries softly and soldier dries his tears and holds him and all Kaz wants is to be able to fight back because this Sick Fuck is acting like it would be this huge favour and that Kaz would enjoy it.

So finally Venom rescues Kaz and after the drugs wear off he’s just like SHIT SHIT STD TEST FUCK (because I also have this hc that despite popular opinion, Kaz was suuuuuper meticulous about safety/protection because of his mom, so being raped he lost all control over keeping himself clean and it’s just the Worst Possible Thing In The World because he’s gone this long without catching anything) and, idk, maybe he gets lucky and he’s still clean but he ends up having severe impotence problems because of it and it’s tough for him to be intimate with V but V is his typical patient, understanding self so he’s able to coax Kaz out of it over time.

BUT YEAH KAZ BEING RESCUED WITH PERFECT HAIR LED TO THIS seriously what is wrong with my brain

So I was just thinking about medic and

saintambrose:

You know Paz’s diary tapes where she laments getting sick and the medical team put her on bedrest?

So I was thinking, she probably had a chest x ray done. And that might prove problematic, considering that it’s pretty easy to determine age through bone development. And imagine Medic just puzzling at these x rays, like, “This is a fully ossified clavicle here, that bone doesn’t complete development until early to mid twenties, wtf?” And so he figures out Paz’s secret and freaks out about her obviously being a spy and immediately goes to Commander Miller with this information (because they’re totally sleeping together at this point and he’s the only person Medic feels safe enough to entrust this secret with) and he just throws up the chest scans and is like. LOOK.

And Miller’s just like “………….what am I looking at.” And medic goes on to tell him that that’s a fully fused clavicle and that we’re most likely looking at a woman close to her mid-twenties, and PLOT TWIST, COMMANDER, but this is Paz’s chest scan we’re looking at. And of course Miller already knows this secret and his face just kinda blanches and he gets really solemn and quiet and firmly closes the door and asks medic who else he’s told about this, and of course medic hasn’t told anyone, he only trusts Kaz with this information, so they kinda have this standoff where Kaz is very gravely like, “Do you trust me? Just keep this secret for me, just trust me on this.” And medic doesn’t know what Kaz has planned or why he knowingly accepted this impostor but medic has a very deep trust and respect for Kaz so he agrees to keep silent on the issue and they share this massive secret together.

And idk where I was going with this but I just like having intimate situations between Kaz/Medic and I feel like it would be one of those important instances that would carry over to the relationship between V and Kaz.

LIKE MEDIC DIDN’T KNOW WHAT KAZ HAD PLANNED BUT HE KEPT THE SECRET ANYWAY.

UGH and I was just thinking, like what if after the Truth tapes, V’s memories start gradually coming back to him, like he’ll get a random flashback out of nowhere, or he’ll have a dream about something he did, but he starts having identity problems because he can’t distinguish between BB’s memories and his own. And since Kaz is his only “constant” and something that he and BB shared, he uses Kaz as his anchor to sanity and will randomly ask him questions to help him sort out his memories. And the Paz thing will come up and it’s just another one of those little intimate things that brings V and Kaz closer together.

I…..I love these fucking schmoopy marshmallows someone please send halp

So I was just thinking about medic and

You know Paz’s diary tapes where she laments getting sick and the medical team put her on bedrest?

So I was thinking, she probably had a chest x ray done. And that might prove problematic, considering that it’s pretty easy to determine age through bone development. And imagine Medic just puzzling at these x rays, like, “This is a fully ossified clavicle here, that bone doesn’t complete development until early to mid twenties, wtf?” And so he figures out Paz’s secret and freaks out about her obviously being a spy and immediately goes to Commander Miller with this information (because they’re totally sleeping together at this point and he’s the only person Medic feels safe enough to entrust this secret with) and he just throws up the chest scans and is like. LOOK.

And Miller’s just like “………….what am I looking at.” And medic goes on to tell him that that’s a fully fused clavicle and that we’re most likely looking at a woman close to her mid-twenties, and PLOT TWIST, COMMANDER, but this is Paz’s chest scan we’re looking at. And of course Miller already knows this secret and his face just kinda blanches and he gets really solemn and quiet and firmly closes the door and asks medic who else he’s told about this, and of course medic hasn’t told anyone, he only trusts Kaz with this information, so they kinda have this standoff where Kaz is very gravely like, “Do you trust me? Just keep this secret for me, just trust me on this.” And medic doesn’t know what Kaz has planned or why he knowingly accepted this impostor but medic has a very deep trust and respect for Kaz so he agrees to keep silent on the issue and they share this massive secret together.

And idk where I was going with this but I just like having intimate situations between Kaz/Medic and I feel like it would be one of those important instances that would carry over to the relationship between V and Kaz.

LIKE MEDIC DIDN’T KNOW WHAT KAZ HAD PLANNED BUT HE KEPT THE SECRET ANYWAY.

That Catherine HC sounds fantastic…I think it would totally work, too. Its definitely not the normal hc you see with Nadine and Kaz either. 👍👌

Thank you! I’ll probably eventually get started on it once I’ve finished up some of these other drafts, I just need to decide on a definitive date of birth for her and get the entire timeline sorted out to avoid inconsistencies in canon.

I also kind of want to explore Nadine in a way that hasn’t been done before. I don’t see Kaz marrying some average girl, like this is KAZ we’re talking about so she’s got to be some kind of screwed up to be the type he’d settle down with, so I imagine her as being just as volatile, vengeful, and passionately aggressive as he is. Like their first argument is terrifying because they’re both equally vicious. And they’re both a couple of cynical, morally ambiguous mercs who want to watch the world burn.

Also she’s kind of a freak. She totally ate his ass out on their second date.

What if Kaz’s daughter became a cop

Also I think about grown up Catherine a lot and the type of person she’d turn out to be. I don’t think she’d do the military/mercenary thing per se – tbh I see her so deeply affected by her father’s death that she studies criminal justice and idk maybe foreign relations at university, then gets accepted to Quantico and becomes a detective for the FBI. (Tell me you don’t see adult!Catherine in a tailored suit with a badge at her hip, complete with Daddy’s trademark scowl when she’s about to question someone) 

And her personal side project when she’s not working is investigating her father’s cold case with the hope of eventually getting revenge, hoping that anyone even remotely involved might still be alive, or at least as some way for her to get closure. I see her going to question people who might have known her dad and them getting all weird and nostalgic, like “Holy god, you look just like him” and maybe moving in a little too close/touching her face but unlike her father, she’s frigid and emotionally closed off (for obvious reasons) so she just kinda stiffens and stonewalls them while keeping her hand on the gun at her hip and very curtly tells them to sit down because she just wants to ask them a few questions. And it sounds more like a threat than anything else.

Occasionally though, if you really set her off, she has her daddy’s spitfire temper, and she’ll unleash merciless rage/violence on you if you’ve pushed her too far or don’t give her what she wants in a timely manner. This was demonstrated once when she nearly killed a suspect while “interrogating” him and was put on temporary suspension. She’s a friggin loose cannon for sure, but she’s a damn good agent and while of ambiguous moral standing, she’s ultimately one of the good guys, just like her dad. She just uses questionable methods sometimes to maintain the balance, as it were. 

Good lord, Special Agent Catherine Miller, yet another thing to add to the daunting list of ‘fics I need to write.’ 

tbh I’ve always kinda thought that the whole thing with Kaz’s eyes is that he got some benign form of the parasites that allows him to see in infrared. That’s why he can totally see Quiet when she’s shadestepping but he’s obviously not telling anyone about it because of the stigma on parasites. 😦

And while he can also see normally, extreme light hurts him and gives him migraines. But yeah he’s totally rockin’ that Predator-vision.

Dude you know what. I think about tpp Kaz topping all the time. I imagine him and Venom during foreplay, and prep is kinda difficult when you’ve only got one hand so I like to imagine V helping Kaz by unscrewing the lube for him and helping him lube up his fingers/dick, &c. For some reason that visual is just super hot to me. =D

g-ambit:

Now this is exactly the kind of thing I wanted. Good.

It just kills me to imagine how frustrating it must be, going from being the sexually hyperactive type of person who has tried everything at least once he used to be to barely being able to move around by himself in TPP.
His only real chance of fully enjoying topping again would probably be with Venom, where they would trust one another enough for this kind of things, and wouldn’t need to have a long talk about it because they understand eachother that much. Venom doesn’t talk much and Kaz doesn’t feel like he has to impress him when they fuck.

But when it comes to one night stand and quick fucks with others, I imagine him to be very closed on himself when that happens, probably making it so it’s done as fast as possible and with very little talk, he’s not here for feelings, he just need to fuck someone hard. But with only one remaining hand he knows his amazing lover reputation took a big hit. He can’t settle on where and how to touch the other, now he has to make a choice every time, does he want to hold them down? pull their hair or jerk them off? Fingering someone and not being able to anything else while doing it would take him so long to get used to. Same for which position to use. He used to love it when people would ride him but now the position just makes him feel weak. At least he still has both his knees…

I love to imagine he can’t even properly get himself off anymore, he can’t stroke and finger himself at the same time, can’t cover his mouth when he starts to make those noises, he’d probably only masturbate when it seems like the only way to deal with too much frustration.

Kaz becoming more and more aggressive and sexually frustrated and depending on Venom for finding real relief.

oh man oh man yeah and like I can totally see Kaz getting really frustrated with masturbation too because he has to relearn how to do it without his dominant hand and just. HAS ANYONE ELSE EVER TRIED TO JERK OFF WITH THEIR NON-DOMINANT HAND JUST FOR THE SAKE OF EXPERIMENTATION? THAT SHIT’S SO DIFFICULT. I imagine him trying to jerk off for the first time after being rescued and trying really hard to find the same rhythm/angle he’d used before but not quite getting it, then ultimately getting frustrated with it and giving up.

Also I imagine him possibly having impotence issues for a while too because that’s a typical side effect of trauma and I see him having a huge emotional breakdown over it because he’s a man who’s essentially placed a great amount of his self-worth in his virility so now he doesn’t even feel human anymore. Only when V is able to coax him out of it and get him reacquainted with physical contact again does he start to come back to life a little.

I also have this little headcanon where he initially does try out a bionic arm because he wants to be active and affectionate like he used to be, and he wants to be able to touch Venom/any other potential partners the way he used to, but he ends up being really disappointed with it because there’s no actual sensation in bionic fingers so he can’t really touch them and it completely defeats the purpose. Also jerking off with cold metal is just really unpleasant to him and he can’t imagine anyone wanting to be touched by cold hard mechanics and he has this minor existential crisis so he flips his shit and like yanks the prosthetic off after the first try and flings it across the room because he’s so disappointed and frustrated at it being such a poor substitute for flesh and blood.

But then this is also why he finds so much comfort in Venom because V knows exactly what he’s going through since he’s already gone through it himself and can help Kaz cope and coach him through the entire process.

Jesus I may write a fic about this.

Sometimes I think about Kaz’s final moments, and when Ocelot eventually goes to kill him, he comes and kneels down beside Kaz while he’s struggling and just gathers him up in his arms and holds him while he dies, maybe strokes his hair and apologises for how things turned out, like, “I’m truly sorry this happened to you, it didn’t have to be this way, I wish we could have been friends” and he’s just super gentle and remorseful and sweet and tries to make Kaz comfortable in his last moments but then he asks Kaz if he has any last words he’d like to say to Big Boss and Kaz just spits blood in Ocelot’s face and uses his last breath to say that BB can still go to hell because Kaz is still really pissed. And not even about BB abandoning him all those years ago, but because he’s hurt that BB couldn’t even keep his fucking promise to be Kaz’s kaishaku and that’s yet another thing BB abandoned him on. Kaz had always secretly fantasized that it would be BB to finally kill him and he couldn’t even be allowed that honour. So he ensures that his last breath is spent confirming he still has nothing but contempt for BB.